Tuesday, 29 December 2009

Psychosis: is it the new gay?

What's wrong with mental health today?

Not enough people working in mental health and healthcare consider what the mental health system actually is. To the majority its simple healthcare and nothing more and certainly nothing less. There are, however, other perspectives.

One is that it is a formal system of human compassion that perhaps developed because of a lack of effectiveness of informal human compassion and/or as a result of the maladaption of societies to the full or fuller spectrum of the human condition (there would always be outlier extremes that mean the word "fuller" is more appropriate than "full" in practice). So depression is the medicalisation of misery and it is compassionate to help those suffering, often when social systems are either incapable or unwilling. Its caring for the poor, the weak and the outcast.

That's wonderful and lovely and to be lauded rather than lambasted like I usually do.
It is also a clever and perhaps unwitting form of social control and definition of acceptable or 'well' behaviours, emotions, experiences and choices. That it is dressed as healthcare and medicine makes it somewhat more sinister, though this is very much a case of coincidence than design. This is a good example of Hanlon's Razor (also know explained as Cock up theory)
Never attribute to malice that which can be adequately explained by stupidity

Some history
Lets take the obvious example of this critical view, the demedicalisation and destigmatisation of homosexuality over the latter half of the 20th century. In 1973 (check this) the American Psychiatric Association and later in 1992 the World Health Organisation removed homosexuality as a psychiatric disorder. It can now be seen as neither healthcare nor compassion when people were told that their sexuality was an illness, that there was something wrong with them, that they were ill. It can be seen as immoral to 'counsel' them out of their behaviour and way of being, to sometimes medicate and incarcerate. It seems worse when its the medical system doing it.

There was no malice. It was just cultural and social stigmas that were drilled into psychiatrists like they are drilled into everyone else. But it does mean that mental health can pathologise things that shouldn't be pathologised. Another simple example of this is the old diagnosis of draptomania - the diagnosis given to slaves who kept on running away.

The question I have is what else is incorrectly described as a mental illness?
An obvious answer to me is psychosis, unshared perceptions, hearing voices, schizophrenia and madness.

Unshared perceptions (the broad term I choose to use to encompass all of the different descriptions) is a heavily stigmatised experience except in certain religious, spiritual and cultural contexts. Reporting hearing voices used to mean immediate hospitalisation in the 1970s, a situation that was exploited by Rosenberg in the famous "Thud" experiment. This was where people who didn't hear voices reported doing so and were immediately hospitalised to show how psychiatrists pathologise normal behaviours and misdiagnose the 'normal'.

I've started to disclose - to open up, or "come out" to use the language used in sexuality. Some people may have been afraid that I was going to attack them. Some people may immediately have thought I was weird or even insane. Some people who have know me for decades may have found themselves unable not to distance themselves because of the unusualness of my experience of consciousness.

It is an intensely distressing and confusing experience but rarely do I see the compassion or understanding. I don't expect it because I understand that few people will be compassionate to something they do not understand, and often something that they have not experienced. Just like with homosexuality.

And just like homosexuality there is an awakening stage where someone goes from (...and I have to choose my words carefully here because I was about to use " being 'normal'" in the context of mental illness and " being heterosexual" in the context of sexuality) a shared or consensus reality definition of what is consciousness and reality to an altered, unusual or simply different state of consciousness or reality. It is one of the most intensely frightening, destructive, painful and torturous processes and one that adjectives lack ability to describe. A term I have heard used as an alternative to psychotic episodes is "ego death" and that speaks more of the destruction of the past sense of ego and individuality that comes with this process.

The stigma is harsh. The self-stigma harsher. It proliferates so deep that many can not see it. Few people are willing to come out and its still a dangerous thing to do to a doctor. The consensus understanding of this experience is poor, though many would know the experience of an inner conversation or dialogue, a committee in their head, the inner critic or simply the voice in their head that they never speak about.

Its in this sense that there's a sense of 'normal' - many people experience an inner voice but they don't call that hearing voices, schizophrenia or psychosis. Many don't notice this and perhaps there is a stage of development (or simply an alternate experience of consciousness) between the observation of an inner voice as part of a person's consciousness and a lack of awareness of that inner voice as part of a person's consciousness. There is another stage or alternate experience of consciousness which I is one I experience where the thoughts in my head are not my own, i.e. in my stream of thoughts that I used to consider my entire consciousness or me "I" there is now an awareness that there is an "I" somewhere in that stream of consciousness and there are other thoughts not of that "I", and that those are coming from another source or place. I experience this as thoughts though they could be describes as voices - I don't. They are not auditory hallucinations in the sense that I am hearing something false or imagined with my ears or any aural pathway.

Weird aint it?
Some of my thoughts aren't my own. There is an "I" but its probably not what the reader would consider. They're also coming from another place or entity - another consciousness or consciousnesses that aren't 'me' and can control me. I converse with and am influenced by this other consciousness/s.

In essence, I am mad and crazy. I can use those words because I use them without a sense of the pejorative. They are the historical definitions that describe my experience but I don't agree with those views. This is a different experience. It may be an alternate state of consciousness and one that existed throughout the history of humanity, from the experience of the Oracle of Delphi through to Abraham in the Bible or more recently Joan of Arc. It has been suggested that it was an experience shared by Abraham Lincoln, Winston Churchill and Mahatma Gandhi.

There are consequences to society and well as to the individual, and its the risk of suicide rather than homicide that's the most important to understand and 'treat' in a healthcare context. It is often treatment without understanding because the practioners have not been through the experience themselves and can only guess from external behaviours. It also leads to outcomes based upon those behaviours rather than what may be considered a useful, humane or moral way to deal with an unusual experience of consciousness that a society is not ready for.

Outside the medical system it suffers the societal stigma and that is the great challenge to shift. Aeons of prejudice deep-rooted through 'developed' societies across the world embeds public pathologisation of this normal experience.

Is it the new gay?
Fuck yeah.

Thursday, 24 December 2009

Children and antipsychotic prescribing in the US

The Psychiatric Times once again provides useful information on an emerging trend: the use of psychiatric medication in children, and in this article the use of antipsychotics.

America has seen a rapid growth in the treatment of behavioural 'illness' in children with ever increasing diagnosis and medication of the young. There are cases where children under 5 and even under 2 are being diagnosed with severe psychiatric disorders.

I can not understand how these diagnoses are achieved. More importantly I can't understand why they happen and, if they do exist, why they are treated with medication.

The best, commonly accepted model of medicine for mental health is the biopsychosocial model. Simply put it addresses the causes best and therefore the treatments. It has the highest potential of any of the medical paradigms for the mainstream of mental healthcare (I make that precise because I believe it still lacks the understanding that maybe these behaviours, states of conscious, attitudes, characters, etc are not illnesses like physical illness) yet has been commented as offering the least useful or practical answers (Rise and fall of the biopsychosocial model,, BJP). This model considers mental health and illness beyond the physical. The psychological makeup and the social environment are factors which all interplay in individuals to create these undesirable states of being (undesirable to whomever chooses to stigmatise them).

There is so much opportunity in children for psycheducation (e.g. self management) and psychosocial treatments to ensure either the individual can manage their behaviours as an adult and the disability caused by society is least. Doctors are too quick to reach into the psychopharmaceutical armenatarium instead of considering more difficult or less convenient options.

There is no need to resort to biological means of behavioural control, because often that's what the use of antipsychotics is. The above article in Psychiatric Times points out that many of the children and young people being given antipsychotics to control aggressive behaviour. That can change without the use of medication are there are undoubtably many examples of aggressive children growing up to be passive adults. I think anyone can reflect on their own life and consider behaviours they exhibited as a child have changed now they are an adult.

Even worse, the use of pharmacy rather than other interventions (including tolerance of a child's behaviour) is much more risky to physical health and mental health in the long term. Little is know about the use of these strong chemicals in children. The evidence in adults is that they induce physical disorders. Children's brains and emotional chemistry develops as they mature into adults and it is unknown just how much damage can be done if the current trend continues.

The potential is for people to become addicted to antipsychotic medication. It may mean that these children may developed needing antipsychotic medication because they didn't develop the psychological skills to cope with aggression. It may mean they miss out on positive life experiences because of the dulled emotional state caused by antipsychotics.

At the moment the trend in the UK is not the same as the US in intensity but I expect that there has been a rise in the UK (check this fact out) in the prescribing of psychiatric medication and antipsychotics to children especially those of a very young age. Over the last fifty years that would be incontroverible because of the case of Ritalin and the ADHD overdiagnosis epidemic.

This is a trend with significant dangers and it seems little oversight or insight. There's an excellent website called Critical Curriculum on Psychotropic Medications (http://www.criticalthinkrx.org/) that's worth checking out. There are Flash videos and presentation slides.

Saturday, 28 November 2009

When is psychosis not psychosis?

A person has many senses beyond the physical 5 classic biological ones.

There have been people in the past who had had sense about things they couldn't know but these are usually dismissed as myths or their ability disregarded by anyone of a poor scientific background. From Nostradamus to the Oracle of Delphi there are numerous examples of people who purported to have the ability to tell the future. There are examples of telepathy, past lives and knowledge available to certain individuals that they could not know from the five senses.

I have an example in my life. I experience an unusual form of consciousness and there are parts that are described by the mental health system. I have thoughts that are not my own and experience a force/s or an entity/ies in my life and in my consciousness. It is hard for me to work in consensus reality because there is a stream of the effect of this 'other' - something that I have no conclusion upon other than it is there and that the consensus theory of consciousness (that all the thoughts and interpretations of senses are all our own and without external influence) is wrong.

Whether these are the repeating, intrusive thoughts are OCD or the paranoia of schizophrenia is irrelevant to me beyond my ability to function in the world as a 'normal' person and learn the truth of what these experiences are actually about.

I went through a period of severe distress but have come out the other side a lot wiser, mainly thanks to staying well away from medical services. I think the experiences of psychosis, schizophrenia and other incorrectly psychopathologised normal experiences should be available for people to go through because they may be part of the path to a higher form of consciousness, albeit one that is hellish to get to and hellish to live with. It is individual choice to go through it and it is immoral for the state to impinge on this, however because of the complete lack of understanding of this experience there is a salient argument for control because of the possibility of suicide.

The three paragraphs above give context to the rest of this tale. Some time ago I was working in office and experiencing varying levels of what people in that office might call psychosis and schizophrenia. Part of this experience for me was the impression given through my 'other' that my emails were being checked and that I was going to loss my job. This is not knowledge in any sense that I could use because I had no evidence.

There was no one I could talk to who would understand - most would dismiss this because of the psychopathologisation of this experience and perhaps because of the root stigma of madness that is why any mental healthcare system every existed. Reality testing is hard, but one of the answers (perhaps) came out in a meeting where I resigned and revealed part of what I had been going through. I explained to my boss that I thought that I was going to be fired - that may have sounded like anxiety and not a facet of what she might think was schizophrenia. In truth I feel it wasn't - I went through several days of an insisting thought repeatedly impacting clearly upon my consciousness that I had lost my job, however I denied its truth because it is not 'real' (consensus reality real - its real to me). Diagnostically it was an anxiety or a worry - when it happened I was not experiencing those intrusive thoughts).

The other information from the other place was that my email was being monitored. I have no evidence of this - how could I? I continued to work and continued to disregard the information from the other place - it has tricked me, controlled me and tortured me to the point of desiring death before. It was only through reading fringe material like this that I came to understand that their may be a purpose to ego death or spiritual crisis - other terms that are useful to elucidate alternative views of this experience.

I have mentioned it to three people that I thought my email was being monitored. The first said no of course not and the other two have said nothing. The two that have said nothing may had said nothing because in their mind they were thinking, "Its definitely schziophrenia". Or they may have been good friends who knew the truth but couldn't say it and couldn't lie either so took the option of silence. Its possible that they were shocked into silence and didn't know what to say. So it is an almost impossible truth to know. One of these people was asked a direct question and was unable to provide a yes or no answer, but my experience is that inferences taken from silence are not the truth.

This is a problem with reality testing which, I believe, is a technique that may be advocated by the mental healthcare system. To test reality when having mad experiences is vital to surviving in reality . To test reality is to have oneself stigmatised as mad and those experiences dismissed as madness.

I can never know the truth of my unshared experiences. That's the worst thing. I think there may be a truth or a power that we all have that is part of who we are. Madness was where that experience was pathologised. Occasionally it was celebrated rather than vilified. I'm sure had I called my 'other' "god" there may be some communities that might accept my experience as real, though they would have their own interpretations and dogma to foist upon me.

In the past I've used an analogy of walking. In a world of apes the first apes to learn to stand up would be weird, different and probably disgusting to those who crawl. Those first apes would have no guide and no teachers. They would fall as they learnt this new way of walking. If the apes had doctors then they would chain down the apes who tried to walk - evidence shows that by chaining down the apes they wouldn't fall. There was never ever psychosanological ape thought about walking: it was an illness.

So when is walking an illness and when is walking, and falling, part of learning and a human experience?

Saturday, 24 October 2009

Aperture and Depth of Field (DoF)

An alternative to the information on this page can be found here:
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Three elements affect exposure: aperture, shutter speed and ISO.

Aperture
Aperture is the size of one of the basic elements of a lens that controls the amount of light getting through and the amount of the scene that is in focus (Depth of Field). There's an element of every lens that controls the size of a circle that lets light through the lens onto the film or sensor.

Depth of Field
The aperture controls the Depth of Field. This is the amount of the scene that is in focus. This is the most important effect of aperture and its worth understanding because its a useful creative tool. Often portraits are shot with a shallow or thin depth of field so the subject (the person being shot) is in focus and the background is out of focus. Often landscape photographs are shot with a large depth of field to get everything pin sharp (the photographer's expression for "very sharp") from a rock in the foreground to the clouds in the background. Closeup shots of flowers want a medium depth of field for reasons I'll explain later.

F-numbers
Aperture is measured in f-numbers, like f2.8 (a shallow depth of field), f11 (a medium DoF) or f22 (a large DoF). The easy way to remember the relationship between aperture number and DoF is the smaller the f-number the less of the scene is in focus.

F-number's aren't measured like 1, 2, 3. The numbers used in camera are:
1.0 1.4 1.8 2.8 4 5.6 8 11 16 22 32
Each relates to a bigger DoF going from left to right (----->)
Each is also a step smaller aperture, i.e. the aperture is smaller and less light gets through. This won't affect the image quality because the camera will automatically adjust the shutter speed to let in more light.
Wiki has a useful page if you want to get into some of the science

A quick note on terminology
Between each f-stop is a "stop", so there's two stops between f1.0 and f1.8. One stop is half or twice as much light getting through, so there's a quarter less light getting through between f1.8 and f1.0 or four times as much light at f1.0 or two stops difference. This also applies to shutter speeds so there's two stops between 1/15 second and 1/90 of a second (which go up and down in a linear way). Half a stop is the difference between f6.3 and f8.
"Stopping down" is the jargon used for reducing the aperture or closing it down to get more DoF. Shooting "wide open" is the lens used at its widest aperture or smallest f-number (e.g. f2.8) to let in the most light for high shutter speeds in low light.

These are the basic. Read more once I write the creative aperture page.

Saturday, 29 August 2009

Advice from a suicide survivor

Suicide is not an answer. That does not mean it is wrong to consider it nor wrong to do it.

Often though the circumstances are not as bad as they seem. They are changeable.

Time is a healer and pain will reduce. The experience that leads to suicide will change.

Beyond this point it will get better. It will also get worse. This is the truth. But the truth is that the next time it gets worse you can be prepared.

If you're ready to die then truly you're ready to live. It may not feel that way when you are thinking of killing yourself though. If you can manage to live a little longer you will see what I mean.

Its ok to thinking about killing yourself. Lots of people do. Don't dwell on it too much.

Talk to someone you trust. If you don't feel ok doing that then speak to the Samaritans. Sometimes its good to talk. Try to do that before you try to kill yourself. Even if its what you're sure you're going to do its nice to speak to one last person before you die.

There is another option to suicide. Give your life to the world. Since your life is over let it become of use to the greater good. Maybe whatever is making you want to die you can make better for someone else even if you can't make it better for yourself.

Take it from someone who has tried to kill themselves before and will undoubtably do so again, and secretly hopes the next time will be the last, don't do it. But if you do do it then I think I understand. I wish I help you more.

Psychosanology, psychopathology and genius

Geniuses are invaluable to society. They are the diamonds amongst the mass of coal. They stand out in history because their achievements significantly impact the consensus. They are always different and original, though this may be a factor of recognition as much as difference (geniuses that work within the construct and impact it significantly but within the paradigm of consensus thought, systems and methods may be less likely to be recognised in history). Their value to society is without measure.

But they are usually mentally ill. Geniuses show the traits of a number of psychiatry disorders. Different ones in different catgories and to different levels of severity. It may be that their eccentric behaviours are allowable because of their talent but it is probably that their eccentric behaviours are part of their talent.

The loneliness of genius may be a factor. It takes a lot of time working and usually working alone for the work of genius. Perfectionism can lead to depression, anxiety and low self esteem however it is a necessary trait for certain areas where genius is expressed, for example in art. The dogged pursuit of their own ideas in the face of the consensus truth is almost a personality disorder in itself.

Upon diagnosis using the cluster of symptoms approach of modern psychiatry the behaviours, thoughts and moods become treated. This is the paradigm of physical medicine. An individual might therefore recieve medication or psychotherapy or another form of therapy. These will solve the illness, but will they spoil the good.

Very simply put the question we are discussing here is whether good things comes from bad things or bad things have a purpose.

Can the experiences that are pathologised by psychiatry have importance and value. Could treatment of the experiences observed by psychiatry to be illness and unwantd be part of genius? Could treating these experiences, changing them and reducing their intensity, without understand of their purpose and potential be detrimental and inhibit the development of indivudals, society and civilisation? Could psychiatry be reducing the production of better people through life's experiences? And is that also true of human compassion in general?

Antimalware 2009

3 free packages provide antimalware protection that's almost as good as a pay-for package like Norton. They're updated the same way just like the premium software so they should keep you protected. In fact two of the free packages are part of premium integrated suites.

AVG Free
www.avg.com
Antivirus. Just get the basic edition which is free.

Zone Alarm
www.zonealarm.com
Firewall. Again, just get the free basic firewall.

Spybot S&D
www.safer-networking.org
Antispyware.

NB - the protection of these three packages isn't as total as Norton 360 or other suites. There are other pieces of free software that fill the gaps the three listed programs don't cover and I'll list those at a later date.

Taking photos without a camera

This is a technique for learning photography. It can be done anywhere. Its partly about learning to see differently and partly about practicing thinking.

Look for photographs. See the beauty around you. Think how you would capture it. Think how it would come out. Imagine what might work and not work.

This can be done while waiting for a bus, walking to work, walking around in a park, at a wedding. Just take a moment to look around for a photograph. Think about how you would compose the shot. Think about the focal length, the aperture and shutter speed. Think about how the light is working. Think about what you might have to do to compensate for the camera's light meter getting it wrong. Look for the angle to capture the shot: is it best shot close up or portrait format.

Living with suicide

This is about living while wanting to die.

For many years I've wished I was dead. Sometimes this was daily thoughts of wanting to end it. Sometimes it is simply a wish to be dead rather than alive. Most times it is just the wish or the hope that death will come soon, that the eternal peace of nonexistance - my only hope - will finally come. Sometimes I've done something about it.

Its a difficult thing to live with. There are times when I need to talk about it but I'm scared of scaring people. People have mixed reactions to the discussion when I've broached the subject in the past.

The reasons I've attempted it in the past have been varied. The last attempt was because of my unshared experience of consciousness. My experience of consciousness has changed over the last few years. Its become an strange and unusual place. I think it is described by the word psychosis. I experience my thoughts not as my own and I feel the influence of a separate consciousness(es). This discovery and the change in my experience was distressing. There is a feeling of being controlled and the idea of free will shatters through this experience, which is perhaps why it often ends up with the cluster of symptoms described by the diagnosis of schizophrenia. My last attempt was for the reason that life with this experience wasn't worth living. There were other factors involved as well of course and the reasons for previous attempts have been different.

Its gotten much better over the last few months and has become a general desire for death or non-existance or sleep unending. I just gaze at train tracks occassionally, wishing I had the courage or energy to step forward a couple of steps.

But I carry on. I've lived with this for such a long time that its become part of me. I'm used to living with a low state of mind so I just get on with living. The brief moments of intense experience or emotion that rise above the sea of ennui keep me going. The misery isn't constant and when it returns it is like an old friend now.

Few would know on the outside. I have gotten better and better at hiding behind a social mask of cheerfulness and good humour. It was not something I was happy to use but it serves a purpose that allows me distance from others and social acceptability. The trade off is I hate myself a little bit more and I'm not authentic. It seems this blog is where I show my self.

My choices are affected by living like this. I care not for my future. I make decisions that are self-harming and will hasten my demise. An example is my legendary drinking that is functional alcoholism and a way to die sooner. Its lucky that I love drinking and it makes me feel so much better. I smoke as well and I smoke cannabis. I eat poorly and irregularly.

It is not only misery though. There is a positive aspect that's helped. Its liberated me from worrying about living a long life. My choices are short term and of the moment.
This may not make sense but I feel like its helped me to be closer to happiness than anyone I know. This make not make sense either.

Wanting to die helps me to live. It helps me to see the true value of life. My life has changed a lot through it because through this process I've found a way to live that is motivating and invigorating. I live to change the world for the better. Since I'd rather be dead my life becomes 'given' to that purpose. It is a way of thinking that allows me to cope.

Many people have said that I should see a doctor about this. I think I would say that to myself if I didn't know myself like I do. My desire to die is a choice and a choice I maintain is mine to make. Its a selfish choice but its my right. There will come a time when I take my own life and that is my intent. This may change but it will change 'organically'.

This long period of wanting to die is part of my journey through life. This journey we are all on and we take different paths. There is always value to the paths taken and there is value to my death wish.

Resilience has also built up. Resilience to the deepr reasons I want to end my life. Resilience to the life stuff that makes me want to die. Resilience to the unshared experience that is core to my desire to kill myself.

Sunday, 23 August 2009

Is antistigma mental healthcare for the social model

Mental healthcare has traditionally focused on change of the individual.

It is only in recent times that antistigma has become part of mainstream mental healthcare. It is over the last decade that we have seen the increase in programmes that aim to change the construct, i.e. society and its view of 'normal' and stigmatised 'ill health'.

This seems a shift in the paradigm that will have impact on mental health and illness. Reducing the stigma of extreme or unusual experiences of consciousness can reduce the suffering caused by the stigma and discrimination. It can reduce the isolation and maintain support networks in times of crisis. It can reduce the social exclusion that often results from mental crisis or ill health. It can reduce the time to detection and increase insight by education of the public.

In reducing stigma and the barriers it creates this modern movement can actually reduce illness by helping make society more accepting of it and able to see the positive in the people who were once view as pariahs.

There are always dangers in these changes, the same as the changes achieved through mental healthcare focused on the individual. Simply put, there is always negative outcomes through change and often it is not accepted or noted. CBT is akin to brainwashing in that they both attempt to reprogram an individual by changing thinking patterns and behaviours; clearly CBT is done with an ethical approach, however this does not mean it is not without some of the dangers of CBT.

Through that line of thought there may be dangers in the antistigma movement that are unforeseen and perhaps unforeseeable. An example of destigmatisation gone awry is the example of personal debt that become rapidly destigmatised over the late twentieth century. This has lead to pervasive debt as a need of the economy and only recently has the misery of this come to the fore. Its links with mental ill health and suffering are beginning to be explored. During the recession the impact of bad debt will be affecting more of the population and bad debt has also been partially causal in the recession itself.

The risks of the antistigma movement are hard for me to see. Is it simply that the world will become more mad or more accepting of madness and eccentricity and laziness (to use old terms) and there will be no repercussions? I doubt that. Those behaviours may have been stigmatised for a reason, however I believe those reasons have passed. Homosexuality may have been stigmatised for a reason that procreation was necessary for the continuation of the species and a basic need for centuries. Things changed and people who were different from the norm could be accepted because the need for the stigma no longer existed.

What need is there for the stigma of mental ill health? Perhaps nothing today. But before....
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....I tire of this line of thought. Its quite hard to think like this and communicate it. I also wonder are these musing really worth the effort they take?

Saturday, 22 August 2009

A link to fundraising podcasts

http://www.institute-of-fundraising.org.uk/events/nationalconventionandconferences/conferences/conferencepodcasts.htm
The Institute of Fundraising produces regular conferences on the hot topics in fundraising. In this series of podcasts conference speakers share their knowledge on their areas of expertise.


Getting stuff cheap



www.hotdealsuk.com
Posts of deals and offers end up categorised and voted for on HotDealsUK. Its an essential place to check out for any bargains and to spread the word of bargains you find. I check it before I go on Ebay.

www.ebay.co.uk
Ebay is a tricky marketplace for the novice but with Paypal's and Ebay's buyer protection its not as risky some might say. Its cheap and that's the reason why people use it. Its not just for second hand goods. There's a lot of new products and items. There's also items from other countries so the range of products is huge. Buyers can stay safe by checking the buyer's feedback and not buying from people who have made few sales before.

Free legal software
Openoffice, Gimp, Firefox and Wordweb are all free programs I use.
Free usually means that the software isn't as easy to use though that's not always the case. Openoffice is a lot like MS Office 2003 and works well with files from MS Office 2003. Firefox and Google Chrome are better to use than Internet Explorer. JAlbum is possibly the best online photo gallery software. Spybot, Zone Alarm personal and other free antimalware programs do the job of premium suites like Norton 360. Open source software like Gimp also have a large community writing applications, tweaks and posting solutions to problems. Most of the add-ons and applications are also free.

www.google.co.uk
Its obvious of course but typing a product name into google should bring up sellers and allow you to find the cheapest price. There are also dedicated comparison websites that can save time and search more products by trying more than the first few links in Google you might find a cheaper option.

About Me

We It comes in part from an appreciation that no one can truly sign their own work. Everything is many influences coming together to the one moment where a work exists. The other is a begrudging acceptance that my work was never my own. There is another consciousness or non-corporeal entity that helps and harms me in everything I do. I am not I because of this force or entity. I am "we"