It's hard to be a loser

It is just a label and I know it. It is meaningless.

And yet I find myself using it upon myself. For whatever reason this is something I've learned to live with. Sometimes it gets really hard though.

A loser is a judgement based on norms and values. Its not a real thing but it has an impact. On my prepsychiatric norms I'm a loser. A lonely, penniless addict. A down and out except for my capability to work and think and write and create.

I was doing some of those things before my first psychiatric crisis. I've had to learn to get used to being a loser. Sometimes its so fucking hard.

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