I think 4 years is a reasonable amount of time to a suicide

In fact it's a bloody long time. 4 months might be better and for most people who want to kill themselves 4 days would be better still.

The point of waiting is only for the hope of an assisted death. This hope has been dashed. Those that take a person with physical illnesses life with a 5 day wait won't help a person who is willing to wait 4 years because he knows how people use mental illness to take a person's free choice away.

4 years was a reasonable time. 1 year would still be reasonable. 4 months would also be reasonable. Reasonable in the sense it showed the decision to die was not a quick one nor a rash decision. Reasonable in my thinking in that it gave me 4 years to find a solution to live too. Reasonable because I might take my life in those 4 years.

I've picked the day but will ruminate on the method. I don't have to wait since there's no option for a civilised death and this was the hope that drove me to wait. I haven't had much suicidal ideation recently nonetheless on reflection if my heart stopped now then today would be a good day.

When I decided to wait it was only with the hope of a peaceful death I could plan towards. I started to work towards it and I think I'll continue. There are many options.

4 years is a long time for anyone. Perhaps 1 year might be better. For the moment I'll stick with waiting 4 years but this may change.