My current endeavour means I am empowering psychiatry to kill a phenotype

I'm no good. I understand the implications and I accept them. I'm not better than a murderer. I seek a scientific answer and I'm worse than scientists who don't know what they're doing.

If psychiatry finds the solution to the delusions then they will make a phenotype extinct. I'm against that but im ...I'm just no good. I might use the idea of patient measures but really all I care about is winning the battle against clozapine.

I do care for my friend though. She started this process in my subconsciousness. She knows a lot and she chose to have her delusion end. I couldn't help her. Neither could her psychiatrists. He'd just try different drugs. I had no answer to help her.

But fuck all that. I know that if this research about what reduces the delusions is successful then I will be responsible for the death of a phenotype. I will be responsible for the death of part of the human race.

Just wait till I fight against what I've created. Just know also that I'm a fucking cunt.