I do wish I was gay

I know some really cool gay guys. They're a lot less hassle than women.
We've got lots in common and I get on with them easier. They' can be
bitchy but honest at least. Well, at least in the bitching I hear.

The problem is the gender expectations forced on me through my childhood
and adult experiences seem to have made me who I am and I'm rarely
attracted to men and never want to sleep with them.

I wonder if, in the future, anything but bisexuality would be thought of
as a mental illness? Many people are still stuck in heteronormative
thinking and behaviour. People often base their sexuality on physical
gender rather than psychological gender however I think this is just
through society's norms of understanding sexuality than any truth about
attraction and people. The social conditioning is still strong.but it
will change and people will start to see and understand people beyond
their fleshy bits.

There's a very small minority who look past a person's physicality and
see the thing inside. I'm not that evolved yet.