Thursday, 7 July 2011

Something which would confuse people

I fel better today. I hadn't thought of suicide till just now. I would
be happy to be dead but I don't want to do anything about it now. I don'
have low mood though I exhibit some other features of depression.

I am still planning to take my life. I have the capacity to understand
the concept of mental disorder and I know enough about the science and
theory and stuff like that to know that I risk a lot by disclosing my
intentions.

I risk my freedom and my liberty. I risk the 'compassion' of others who
might intervene in what I want done.

What is true compassion? If anyone had walked my journey then they would
understand. If anyone lived my life as it is then they would know. I am
making a rational, reasonable and thought out choice. It is a selfish
one but...well there is a lot of selfishness in the world.

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