This is what I do

I'm escaping my life. I'm in one of my ostrich in the sand places. My head is in the sand.

All I do is drink red wine, smoke skunk and write in this park near where I live for a few hours a day.

I don't want to deal with real life any more. I know I have to but I don't want to.

So I come here and rant. It is better than sitting at home playing shitty facebook games. Most of my electronic contact is through a game called galalxy legion.

I escape into my blogging on mental health or I escape into these simple social network browser-based games.

I want things but I'm not getting any of them done. Really struggling to do anything else but this routine.

I have no idea what this state is, whether it is clinically diagnoseable or treatable. I just need to get on with it.