Hung like a chihuahua or men's secret shame

I've been considering this a bit but haven't reached a conclusion. My own experience of having a small knob is one of anxiety that induces lack of pscyhosexual maturity. Basically I was really, really really inadequate because of my small penis. It was an embarrassment or a shame I just couldn't get over and still to this day I feel inadequate because of it. That's probably why I have such big lenses on my cameras.... Of course there's nothing wrong with a small penis....except the look on a woman's face. A small penis can make a man feel small. It's hard to get over given the whole...well....it was probably Freud who went on about stuff like this. I'm probably lucky I overcompensate with big lenses. But it's always been hard to get over the inner stuff about how inadequate it feels as a man to have a small penis. Men hide this pain without exception. It is a shame that is far beyond the masculine paradigm. It is unpseakable. My evidence is that I'm probably one of the handful of people who can be open about what that sort of man pain feels like. I have the advantage of lived experience too. And so I learned to compensate. I believe the metaphor expressed by the vernacular is "it ain't the size of your boat it's the motion of your ocean" or something like that. Essentially, and much thanks to prolific research in porn, I tried to learn how to make a woman climax. I'd heard from an influential person in my life many years ago when I worked in call centre that a way to a woman's heart was the simple explanation that I could make them climax. I haven't read the study on that and I'm not sure about the lived experience. It's hard to be so resilient to the negative feelings about my inadequacy. It's not helped by the "tells" or the signs that people find hard to hold back that tell the truth of their emotional response. This is a silent shame. This is not recognised in a society where a man going, "small tits love. I'd rather eat an omelette", would be vilified but that look from a woman can be just as withering. It is so much worse because it is a hidden shame not talked about at all and rarely recognised. Porn has an effect on this just as marketing does. Porn itself...well...have you ever seen Monsters of Cock. Men with small penises who watch porn often see professional porn stars who have huge penises. It's like the problem of size zero models. They also get adverts for penis enlargement and Viagra to solve the problem of inadequacy that's created by the porn industry, just like anorexia and the fashion advertising industry. The diversity of the portrayal of women in porn is actually pretty damn big. Anything can be catered for. I've even have the pleasure of watching psychiatric porn which featured one of the world's top porn stars. I'm glad the antistigma message is getting out to lots of lonely boys. Anyway, I'm hung like a Chihuahua ....and I'm not proud. I think there are many, many other men who would also not usually talk about it. Films like 40-year old virgin have helped a bit but never raised the idea of penis size anxiety.