Sunday, 17 October 2010

Understanding suicide from the inside

What I'm happy about about being suicidal is the same thing as I'm happy
about a lot of the other shit that comes with being mentally ill. I can
read volumes of research or step into anyone one moment of my personal
experience and know more.

I can learn from books or I can learn from life in mental heath. I chose
to do both. I have the privelidge and the pain of having the opportunity
to learn from life.

I know suicidal feelings are multi-faceted. From the external
perspective everything can be simplified but the simplification
denigrates the true knowledge. I could look at a review of papers and
find little that's useful for knowing what's happening inside an
individual A quantitative study of suicide is as useful as a chocolate
teapot. The science of averages proves useless when chemistry existed
around the time of alchemy. The mind if far more important than
chemistry and the will to die is more complex than quantum physics.
However just like quantum physics simplification is the first step to
getting it wrong.

Why people kill themselves is one of the great questions for humankind.
If people begin attempting to answer that with the knowledge that
they're too stupid to understand then perhaps they may be a step closer
to answering it than anyone else. It is more faceted than the Hindu
religion. The manifestations are many. The desire or the willingness to
die is what's in common.

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