Thursday, 7 October 2010

A moment of openess from me

I'm sad right now. The things that I did to myself in my battle with my
other self have taken much from ym life. But I've lost so much already.
My opportunities for love like my chances for so many other aspects of
normal life are dashed by choice and by the other and by mental illness
- and all these things are me.

"I", that thing that is synonymous with the concept of the I in cogito
ergo sum (and as a truth of existence) am feeling the weight of all of
this at this present moment in time. I'm used to it. I know I have a
different life now, a different way of looking at things and many other
positives I've achieved by going throguh the worst experience known to
humanity. It doesn't mean I don't feel the pain. I just suck it up and
drink till I put my life back together again and get back to my work.
The joint and the bottle are my substitute for many things.

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We It comes in part from an appreciation that no one can truly sign their own work. Everything is many influences coming together to the one moment where a work exists. The other is a begrudging acceptance that my work was never my own. There is another consciousness or non-corporeal entity that helps and harms me in everything I do. I am not I because of this force or entity. I am "we"