Challenge to opportunity

I saw my tree today. I needed something. It's my strength. It's a tree
by my favourite spot. It has seen more than I ever will. I go there for
strength. My Eywa perhaps (see post below)?

I am in touch with the spirit of the tree. It speaks to me and I to it.
I had to beg today. For the stength to keep going like it's done. For
the luck for those other than me.

How many will die for the decisions published today? I can't handle that
bleakness but my tree spirit helped me tonight. I just can't take the
futility anymore but I make my choice. Keep seeking the sea. Put the
pistol and ball away. I just can't take it any more.

Why do people have to die? why when it's not needed? What the fuck?!
It's just money. It's just...whatever. Government is about the people.
They did really well in the Whitehall cuts. Respect. But...I just don't
know. I have a thousand and one ideas tonight for 1 reason: people don't
need to die.

What are we here for? our self agrandisement? More wealth to buy better
mobile phones? Better cars. better beer. Beeter clothes. Better fucking
houses that srtarted this shit in the first place.

For what?! I would kill myself if that was all. All I have in this world
is what I can use my stinking shitty existence to effect change. Yes.
It's not about the money. It's about the fucking power but the power to
rid this world of it's own stench.

Over the next decade there will be more suffereing and death because of
what happened today. There's no need for all the ensuing death that will
come because of the cut backs. I'm dumb though. I don't consider money
important. I consider what things are important. I have that quality
because I'm mentally ill.

All that came to me was that stupid entrepreneurial bullshit that I'm
meant to be made for. Challenge to fucking opportunity. This sort of
shit is why entrepreneurs need to be mentally ill.

This is my challenge. How to turn this hell into an opportunity. There's
a way tosee this problem that's happened today. Less money and help for
the poor. Reduced government spending. The psychological effect of what
happened today is the most important thing just as it was in what
triggered the crisis. It's always perceptions. Today the UK knows the
next decade is going to be bad. People will spend less and save.
Companies will cut back. People will donate less so they have more for
them. The logic or ration is to ensure self-survival. The insane look
after others when a rational person would be self-interested. This is
the key effect of today. It will be felt in weeks and months and years.
It has always been this that causes economic depressions and recessions.
Nothing more (apart from the psychological circumstances that cause the
idea that the buuble won't burst).

I am glad of all that entrepreneur training (like there's such a thing).
It saved my life. Without it I'd have just seen a problem too big to fix.