Am I evil?

Is this why all this is happening to me?

I...I can't think why life and people have treated me how they treated me. Fortune or fate, something cursed me.

I know I've done bad things and I'm not a good person. I'm far from perfect. I never meant to harm though. I don't think I'm evil.

I must be though or perhaps I was evil in a past life. My life feels like a curse. I wonder why I'm being punished so hard?

I know people probably have worse lives than me. Shit. I'm in a psychiatric ward. Loads of people here have had worse lives than me. I wonder why it happened to them.

I must be evil for all this ill to be wrought upon me. So much ill wrought upon one person.

I wonder when the final straw will come? I wonder if, for my evil, I will be tortured to death.

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